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by heyV
Sat Apr 27, 2013 5:14 pm
Forum: TV Interviews - Videos -Documentaries - Educate yourself
Topic: Leaving the cult
Replies: 3
Views: 2947

Re: Leaving the cult

Super helpful! Thank you!
by heyV
Fri Apr 26, 2013 5:21 am
Forum: Leaving RSE: The Aftermath
Topic: I am embarrassed that I did it again.
Replies: 52
Views: 13632

Re: I am embarrassed that I did it again.

Hi my friends, I want to take a little time and let you all know how I am getting along. For a little while I went into a bad depression. I was going from "being a god" to just being a little dot on a vast humanity- SO SO far to fall, I believe that depression was a normal response to what my brain ...
by heyV
Mon Mar 25, 2013 2:01 am
Forum: Leaving RSE: The Aftermath
Topic: I am embarrassed that I did it again.
Replies: 52
Views: 13632

Re: I am embarrassed that I did it again.

Hi my friends, I got a couple of notes that made me realize I must be isolating real badly, so I thought I better bite the bullet and get something posted. At the risk of sounding like a whiner, I am pretty severely depressed. I will write more when the horrible pressure on my heart and mind that ma...
by heyV
Mon Mar 04, 2013 5:16 am
Forum: Leaving RSE: The Aftermath
Topic: I am embarrassed that I did it again.
Replies: 52
Views: 13632

Re: I am embarrassed that I did it again.

I notice I haven't written for a few days. I seem to be taking longer and longer time between writing - I am *trying* very hard to get a life scraped together. I am a bit of a basket case- UNDERSTATEMENT! and I know that most people have no clue what I am depressed from- I feel like an idiot and an ...
by heyV
Thu Feb 28, 2013 12:32 am
Forum: RSE Discrepancies
Topic: And the appeal of JZ Knight's message is...?
Replies: 45
Views: 28014

Re: And the appeal of JZ Knight's message is...?

"Thinking back to when I first left RSE, sure it was initially painful to have friends express their dislike for me. But with a little contemplation, their actions just became recognized as the expressions of those who were not in full control of their mind." Thank you for this nugget of wisdom, it...
by heyV
Wed Feb 27, 2013 7:21 am
Forum: Leaving RSE: The Aftermath
Topic: I am embarrassed that I did it again.
Replies: 52
Views: 13632

Re: I am embarrassed that I did it again.

Hi everyone, I want to make sure and keep writing so whoever might need this can see my path, and maybe this will help someone. Today I went to another support group- I was able to talk and cry- tonight I feel better. Just taking a shower and driving my car felt empowering. I have to change so much ...
by heyV
Tue Feb 26, 2013 3:14 am
Forum: LAUGHTER: A HEALTHY PART OF MOVING ON
Topic: Here comes another one - February 2013
Replies: 12
Views: 5820

Re: Here comes another one - February 2013

The "new girl" one made me laugh! Written by rambles! LOL!
by heyV
Tue Feb 26, 2013 3:10 am
Forum: All Things EMF - Researching the Ramtha Cult? Use our EMF Search Engine
Topic: EMF renewed website hosting to 2017
Replies: 5
Views: 3316

Re: EMF renewed website hosting to 2017

Thank you Robair. Invaluable resource to me.
by heyV
Mon Feb 25, 2013 2:09 am
Forum: Leaving RSE: The Aftermath
Topic: I am embarrassed that I did it again.
Replies: 52
Views: 13632

Re: I am embarrassed that I did it again.

Hi everyone, I took a little time (and a shower) yesterday and let everything simmer on the back burner I guess. I still am having a hard time eating and I barely sleep. I do feel better? I have stopped the several times a day crying jags that rip out my heart, so that is improving. I found a group ...
by heyV
Fri Feb 22, 2013 11:48 pm
Forum: Leaving RSE: The Aftermath
Topic: I am embarrassed that I did it again.
Replies: 52
Views: 13632

Re: I am embarrassed that I did it again.

I am in the St louis area.
by heyV
Fri Feb 22, 2013 11:06 pm
Forum: Leaving RSE: The Aftermath
Topic: I am embarrassed that I did it again.
Replies: 52
Views: 13632

Re: I am embarrassed that I did it again.

Hi, thank you so so much for helping and making comments. I am still here and trying to eat and reading everything I can to find out what happened to me. I am so grateful for caring of you all because I just dont have anyone else. that sounds so pitiful, but what else can I say but the truth? I am n...
by heyV
Thu Feb 21, 2013 10:33 pm
Forum: Leaving RSE: The Aftermath
Topic: I am embarrassed that I did it again.
Replies: 52
Views: 13632

Re: I am embarrassed that I did it again.

Hi, thanks for the caring notes. I cry everytime I log on because I feel that someone cares and knows - and I can't tell anyone in my life. Unfortunately I am pretty broke and no insurance- so having to get through this alone and without medical intervention. I am feeling so dam out of it mentally. ...
by heyV
Thu Feb 21, 2013 8:03 am
Forum: Leaving RSE: The Aftermath
Topic: I am embarrassed that I did it again.
Replies: 52
Views: 13632

Re: I am embarrassed that I did it again.

Thank you for taking the time to send replies to my message. I want to just make sure I am talking to someone, because I can't (won't) tell my family so they have no idea why I am so depressed. I have been thinking about suicide. I also feel that I have such a hole in me that will be so painful for ...
by heyV
Wed Feb 20, 2013 3:18 am
Forum: Starting Your Recovery Process
Topic: My mother joined RSE in 1986 when I was 14 years old.
Replies: 23
Views: 7413

Re: My mother joined RSE in 1986 when I was 14 years old.

Hi Sunshine, I too was blown away by this website and stayed up all night reading it, riveted to the assertions of the posters here. This thing that I so believed was going to be the pinnacle of all that I had suffered and hoped for- I really had NO idea until the diciplines didn't give me any resul...
by heyV
Wed Feb 20, 2013 1:24 am
Forum: Leaving RSE: The Aftermath
Topic: I am embarrassed that I did it again.
Replies: 52
Views: 13632

I am embarrassed that I did it again.

hi, I am embarrassed that I did it again. I was a fundementalist christian for 20 years and in an abusive marriage that I finally had the courage to leave from and left the religion too. I know now it was a cult- and I don't think there are any belief systems that aren't now. I have the right to bel...
by heyV
Wed Feb 20, 2013 12:51 am
Forum: Student Deaths. Suicide Prevention Resources Abuse at RSE.
Topic: Ed Wiltsie- another master "shall not pass"
Replies: 24
Views: 7916

Re: Ed Wiltsie- another master "shall not pass"

Thank you Sunshine for the nice welcome. I appreciate it. V
by heyV
Tue Feb 19, 2013 11:42 pm
Forum: Starting Your Recovery Process
Topic: web site is called WIDE EYE CINEMA
Replies: 2
Views: 2502

Re: web site is called WIDE EYE CINEMA

Thank you so much. V
by heyV
Tue Feb 19, 2013 11:30 pm
Forum: Student Deaths. Suicide Prevention Resources Abuse at RSE.
Topic: Ed Wiltsie- another master "shall not pass"
Replies: 24
Views: 7916

Re: Ed Wiltsie- another master "shall not pass"

Whoops- It looks like I posted incorrectly and just added to your comment- not sure how to say something back to someone yet. :oops: V. I began with high hopes and all my heart last year. So not so long really, but coming off a bad divorce and other life struggles compounds the hurt a lot. :cry: Tha...
by heyV
Tue Feb 19, 2013 11:27 pm
Forum: Student Deaths. Suicide Prevention Resources Abuse at RSE.
Topic: Ed Wiltsie- another master "shall not pass"
Replies: 24
Views: 7916

Re: Ed Wiltsie- another master "shall not pass"

hey V - I'm so glad you're finding this website helpful. How long were you a participant. It sounds like you took the on-line course. Hopefully, you didn't spend too much money before seeing the red flags that woke you up. For me, EMF has become a real support group in the true sense of the word "s...
by heyV
Tue Feb 19, 2013 6:42 am
Forum: Student Deaths. Suicide Prevention Resources Abuse at RSE.
Topic: Ed Wiltsie- another master "shall not pass"
Replies: 24
Views: 7916

Re: Ed Wiltsie- another master "shall not pass"

"Let it Snow" was one of the many themes of the Assay+Boktau I attended in October 98-99. Scamtha led us all, many times throughout the event, in the cheer "let it snow" (we were having an early Christmas) and it never did snow. I just KNEW it would start snowing any day. Since we were all experts ...
by heyV
Tue Feb 19, 2013 5:45 am
Forum: Starting Your Recovery Process
Topic: web site is called WIDE EYE CINEMA
Replies: 2
Views: 2502

web site is called WIDE EYE CINEMA

the other web site is called WIDE EYE CINEMA- and the comments that helped me see what was happening to me were on the article called "JZ Knight Ramtha Cult exposed". Those really helped me feel better - I would have felt very alone without those comments, espcially the poster called 'Oldone' whose ...
by heyV
Tue Feb 19, 2013 5:31 am
Forum: RSE Discrepancies
Topic: And the appeal of JZ Knight's message is...?
Replies: 45
Views: 28014

Re: And the appeal of JZ Knight's message is...?

Hi- just to clarify that is Craig (or Greg?) who I am talking about that told his story of how the dicipline of C& E made his drawing /picture come true- he leads some of the beginners online streaming events - as a teacher at RSE.
by heyV
Tue Feb 19, 2013 5:26 am
Forum: RSE Discrepancies
Topic: And the appeal of JZ Knight's message is...?
Replies: 45
Views: 28014

Re: And the appeal of JZ Knight's message is...?

Hi, For me I have had significant losses that I was trying to recover from emotionally and when I felt I could take back my power through being my own creator of reality I got hooked. Fortunately (or unfortunately) I had sickness that I was concentrating on that did not get better after the promised...

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