The EnlightenMeFree (EMF) Online Debate Forum

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Hi my friends, I want to take a little time and let you all know how I am getting along. For a little while I went into a bad depression. I was going from "being a god" to just being a little dot on a vast humanity- SO SO far to fall, I believe that depression was a normal response to what...

Hi my friends, I got a couple of notes that made me realize I must be isolating real badly, so I thought I better bite the bullet and get something posted. At the risk of sounding like a whiner, I am pretty severely depressed. I will write more when the horrible pressure on my heart and mind that ma...

I notice I haven't written for a few days. I seem to be taking longer and longer time between writing - I am *trying* very hard to get a life scraped together. I am a bit of a basket case- UNDERSTATEMENT! and I know that most people have no clue what I am depressed from- I feel like an idiot and an ...

"Thinking back to when I first left RSE, sure it was initially painful to have friends express their dislike for me. But with a little contemplation, their actions just became recognized as the expressions of those who were not in full control of their mind." Thank you for this nugget of ...

Hi everyone, I want to make sure and keep writing so whoever might need this can see my path, and maybe this will help someone. Today I went to another support group- I was able to talk and cry- tonight I feel better. Just taking a shower and driving my car felt empowering. I have to change so much ...

The "new girl" one made me laugh! Written by rambles! LOL!

Thank you Robair. Invaluable resource to me.

Hi everyone, I took a little time (and a shower) yesterday and let everything simmer on the back burner I guess. I still am having a hard time eating and I barely sleep. I do feel better? I have stopped the several times a day crying jags that rip out my heart, so that is improving. I found a group ...

I am in the St louis area.

Hi, thank you so so much for helping and making comments. I am still here and trying to eat and reading everything I can to find out what happened to me. I am so grateful for caring of you all because I just dont have anyone else. that sounds so pitiful, but what else can I say but the truth? I am n...

Hi, thanks for the caring notes. I cry everytime I log on because I feel that someone cares and knows - and I can't tell anyone in my life. Unfortunately I am pretty broke and no insurance- so having to get through this alone and without medical intervention. I am feeling so dam out of it mentally. ...

Thank you for taking the time to send replies to my message. I want to just make sure I am talking to someone, because I can't (won't) tell my family so they have no idea why I am so depressed. I have been thinking about suicide. I also feel that I have such a hole in me that will be so painful for ...

Hi Sunshine, I too was blown away by this website and stayed up all night reading it, riveted to the assertions of the posters here. This thing that I so believed was going to be the pinnacle of all that I had suffered and hoped for- I really had NO idea until the diciplines didn't give me any resul...

hi, I am embarrassed that I did it again. I was a fundementalist christian for 20 years and in an abusive marriage that I finally had the courage to leave from and left the religion too. I know now it was a cult- and I don't think there are any belief systems that aren't now. I have the right to bel...

Thank you Sunshine for the nice welcome. I appreciate it. V

Thank you so much. V

Whoops- It looks like I posted incorrectly and just added to your comment- not sure how to say something back to someone yet. :oops: V. I began with high hopes and all my heart last year. So not so long really, but coming off a bad divorce and other life struggles compounds the hurt a lot. :cry: Tha...

hey V - I'm so glad you're finding this website helpful. How long were you a participant. It sounds like you took the on-line course. Hopefully, you didn't spend too much money before seeing the red flags that woke you up. For me, EMF has become a real support group in the true sense of the word &q...

"Let it Snow" was one of the many themes of the Assay+Boktau I attended in October 98-99. Scamtha led us all, many times throughout the event, in the cheer "let it snow" (we were having an early Christmas) and it never did snow. I just KNEW it would start snowing any day. Since ...

the other web site is called WIDE EYE CINEMA- and the comments that helped me see what was happening to me were on the article called "JZ Knight Ramtha Cult exposed". Those really helped me feel better - I would have felt very alone without those comments, espcially the poster called 'Oldo...

Hi- just to clarify that is Craig (or Greg?) who I am talking about that told his story of how the dicipline of C& E made his drawing /picture come true- he leads some of the beginners online streaming events - as a teacher at RSE.

Hi, For me I have had significant losses that I was trying to recover from emotionally and when I felt I could take back my power through being my own creator of reality I got hooked. Fortunately (or unfortunately) I had sickness that I was concentrating on that did not get better after the promised...