The EnlightenMeFree (EMF) Online Debate Forum

Thanks, David for posting this excerpt. I have been reading on another forum, called psychopath free. Like this forum, people post experiences and insights. There is a not so surprising similarity in their stories and our rse stories. I have said here openly, that I believe that jzkr is dissociative...

Hello, Rooster, I love what I know of Japan, the people and culture. I hope to visit there someday. It is probably a combination of reasons that the sight of lost Japanese students would be the key to unlocking my cult locked mind. When I think of the day now, I pray that those people also woke up, ...

Hi Sunshine, Thoughtful and well written response, yourself. ;-) I think I did post a little of my 'scales falling from my eyes' experience here somewhere on the forum. In April 2011, I was driving through Yelm and I noticed several Japanese people standing on the corner near Walt's tires, holding s...

And I feel that Sunshine hit the nail on the head, Judy doesn't give a s**t.

Thanks, Sunshine
New Shoes

Welcome sequitur, I appreciate your posts. I have to agree with David, on whether jz feels any real discomfort about what she has done. Sure, she can't tell anyone about the extent and depth of her deception as master rambles. But she is deeply damaged, sociopathic and dissociative. This most likely...

Hi, This started happening a couple of weeks ago to my iPad. I cleaned out my web browsing history and it seemed to go away. It's back today. It did not seem consistent, but persistent. Most often happening if I came to the site through 'this test is over', then 'message board' link. I'm with David ...

Sorry to hear, Joe, of your good walking companion. It is always hard to say that good bye. I hear you: the years stolen, the roads not imagined, the emotional and material impoverishment of my years inside the rse mind trap, it is hard not to be bitter. And yet, I don't want to dwell on the past ei...

Thanks for the thoughtful support. Each day is a challenge to me. I keep finding places in my thinking that are are tainted by the jzk/r worldview. I don't trust anyone at the moment. Plus the PTSD responses are getting worse as I discover more triggers. I know that might sound odd, but I was pretty...

Yep, infrared. Another 'place' to get trapped. As I figure it, the only safe place, according to jzk/r, is ultraviolet and beyond. And invisible to all of those still in visible light and below. So, if you stretch this teaching, you can see how it is in alignment with the blue light bath believers. ...

The news this week has seemed to me to be filled with disaster. The bombing at the Boston Marathon, the explosion of a fertilizer factory in Texas, the drone strikes in Afghanistan, bomb explosions in Bagdad, incredible numbers of dead in Syria and more. You get the picture. Yet something is differe...

Welcome, RSEsurvivr. I recently found the site also, and I am reading here quite a bit, until I make myself stop so I can process some of the intense emotional responses that arise in me as I read. I feel it takes a lot of courage to face the truth of what I see now as the extraordinary deception th...

Thanks for this, FMS. I had a good laugh! I needed that reality check.

Cheers,
NS

I do have the ' tide is turning' feeling. And I know that a lot of damage can be done in the throes of burning up and losing it. My IP address matches rse records, since it hasn't changed in ages, and I used it it watch a stream in Feb '11. Sadly. Very long drunken ramble. Yet I am confident that th...

The 'don't go to the light' teaching was given in January 1991. It was a long evening. The story was about jzkr gazing into the fire 35k ago and seeing us as we are now, needing a teacher in this far distant future. The story was that there are these entities at the edge of the 3 rd level who use ou...

Talking about fear again.

If jzk can have access to ip addresses then for many of us it is not hard to figure out who someone is. I know from looking at blog stats on the backside of a website that some people can be deduced from location and server names.

I do feel very uncomfortable now.

NS

Fear. Having just come to a place of posting here, I feel the fear viscerally, my heart rate goes up and I want to stop thinking about the insidious intrusion into my thinking that jzkr has pulled off. (Breathing hard here). Not to mention the grief I have over financial and relationship losses. Sad...

Thanks so much for the warm welcomes!!! I can't say enough how it makes me feel to have you all here on this site. And the quick response after I posted for the first time really soothed my nagging doubt about publicly saying anything about voldemort. I look forward to sharing my story and experienc...

Welcome Newshoes, So glad to have you here and posting so eloquently. The more of us bound here by our shared experience strengthens each of our resolve. Freemysoul Thanks for the welcome. I feel as though I'm only now understanding how to exhale. The fear and shame of my entanglement with jzkr is ...

Hello to everyone here. I am so grateful to have found you. As the moderators probably can see, I have been reading page after page on the site for the last day and a half. So many emotions have flowed through me during this intense search. Like a drink in the desert, a healing balm on my psyche, th...