Well lets see did I manifest anything, paradise beach, almost froze to death sitting there many times all night, I would find myself in the morning leaned over face planted in the mud. Not matter how much clothing I wore I shiivered all night, I am sure I passed out from shivering all night.
One time I was so cold I could not control the chattering of my teeth and a person in front of me got upset because they could hear the chattering of my teeth, and told me to be quite.
The field frozen feet and sunburn, I remember one day it was so hot, and I got screamed at from a red guard because I was off the field, sitting under a shaded tree, because I felt like I was gonna pass out, I was told to focus, weather shouldn't be a factor..yeah right!!! However I did find a few cards, took me many years but it was all by chance!!!! I know that now!!! Archery lost interested waiting in line to shoot!!!!! Really blindfolded to hit a target, couldn't hit the target without a blindfold!!! The tank, yep never made it to the void, I did over come any feelings of claustrophobia, that I had which I didnt realize I had, but of course anybody would feel that stuck in a tube with a bunch of people going nowhere quickly, okay I learned patience, even more that I had. Wine ceremonies, yep, learned that if I drank alot I became drunk, even though I was told if I focused and drank with Ramtha the alcohol would not affect me the same way as if I was drinking socially.
The wine ceremonies became boring heard the same things and was tired of being around a bunch of drunks falling all over, vomiting and stepping on you, as you tryed to sleep. C & E gave me a sore back, hot flashes and headaches, just the way I want to start my day!!! And then when blue college came along I just couldn't wait to be a part of it!!! However because I didn't have two pennies to rub together and my life was pretty much a dead end, didn't get to experience. THANK GOD,....but believe me I was determined to come back to the school once I got on my feet again, because somewhere I believed I just didnt get it!!!! Oh how wonderful to have that break, it gave me a opportunity to really look at what had happened in the 12yrs of attending, pretty much nothing, other than I pretty much could live on nothing and at times I did!!! I put everything I had into that school, monetary, blood sweat and tears.
Only to see my life pass by me like a movie picture, and unable to regain any of that back. Espescially time with my family as I moved to the Yelm area and seperated myself from them.
What a waste of time from my life. My advice to you, run away as fast as you can. That is not a place to find enlightenment, it is filled with misery, as you can read many stories on here. I am so happy for the time I was not in school, I found out the world really wasn't that scary of a place, I knew that before going into the school, I had just been brainwashed that it was. This website just fell into my lap. And I believe that was for good reason. And that is what I manifested!!! Pretty exciting !!!