The EnlightenMeFree (EMF) Online Debate Forum

Someone asked a question if they ever saw a break in character on stage. Yes. A few years ago Scamtha broke down crying and JZ was mutering, "I can't do this any more". The one camera guy did a close up on her while her face/head faced the back wall. I have this on audio as I was viewing the Livestream. I regreat not recording the Visual.

So the next question is, "Why did I not just quit the school at that time?"

Because I was introduced to the school when I was in the midst of a major ongoing trauma in my life and the RSE school was the distraction I seeked to guide me through my other trauma. I made it out of my other trauma alive and well; a miracle; so then I would defend RSE to the core; which meant I would ignore all the BS and make excuses for it. I was at the point for years where I would "listen" to Scamtha, but not "look" at Scamtha. I went to the events this way. I went to the $5,000 Feast this way. I recorded only the audio of the Livestream, but not the visual. I kept this up for years. And did my disciplines. I went to the school to do the "Tank" and hoped i would not have to listen to Scamtha.

If you are still in the school ... ask around. How did you find RSE? Many make it to the school after a trauma ... and Scamtha labels that as the "runner" that got you there. You're very special bogus runner.

That's the best explanation I can give to others looking into the school who cannot understand us for falling for this BS. We first went through Trauma and Depression, and did not seek professsional advice. We instead got handcuffed by the Scamtha.

I am still brainwashed in thinking that RSE still saved my life from my "other" trauma. For that I think I am grateful; but I know I'm still brainwashed. It is a long process that keeps getting better and better and better.

Peace and Blessings to all.

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So Eddie, Sounds like Jz doesnt even want to be there anymore? She has all these people come, huge crowds, all come for secret knowledge and are paying top dollar, and she doesn't even want to be there. Thats really sad.

Because I was introduced to the school when I was in the midst of a major ongoing trauma in my life and the RSE school was the distraction I seeked to guide me through my other trauma. I made it out of my other trauma alive and well; a miracle; so then I would defend RSE to the core:

For 6 months I have been wondering what the hell was I thinking to blindly follow such a crazy demented woman who insisted she was "channeling" a god man realised, a so called master that continually displayed conditional love with a cruel twist. I can't thank you enough Eddie you said exactly what I needed to hear, I am no longer out on a limb, my name is Carol and I can see why I surrendered my mind to a jehovah wannabe. I now have to look at the trauma that led me in there, enough time has passed now and I know I can deal with it because the trauma of jzrrse was by far a greater threat to my sanity, the miracle was making it out of there alive and well. A big Thankyou to everyone who has posted on the EMF site I don't know what I would have done without your precious words to read when my life felt "out on a limb".
Thanks again Eddie

Carol

Thanks Carol.

The best advice I have read on this webapge is to not beat ourselves up over this.