I am so grateful to have found you. As the moderators probably can see, I have been reading page after page on the site for the last day and a half. So many emotions have flowed through me during this intense search. Like a drink in the desert, a healing balm on my psyche, the heartfelt sharing has opened up something in me. I know I am not alone anymore.
I am very grateful to Cheryl, whose letter in the NVN last week, lead me to this site. Cheryl, your courage has inspired me to move toward healing and hope. And a special appreciation to Sunshine, whose heart open posts gave me added courage to reach out.
Thanks for the welcome.freemysoul wrote:Welcome Newshoes,
So glad to have you here and posting so eloquently. The more of us bound here by our shared experience strengthens each of our resolve.
I feel as though I'm only now understanding how to exhale. The fear and shame of my entanglement with jzkr is only the tip of my iceberg. More to see, and release, I know.
I anticipate sharing my journey of 26 years with the phenom called jzkr and my insights on recovering/discovering myself as I extricate from this. As an aside, my auto-correct feature wants to replace 'jzkr' with 'joke'. Oh, irony. ;-/
This is a process, a deliberate, sometimes painful, but completely liberating process. It was almost like a rebirth for me, relearning things that most take for granted. Still now, more than two years since my last event, I still struggle emotionally and mentally at times, but they are only moments, not the hours, days and weeks I struggled in the beginning. The truth is that this site, EMF, saved my life, and made that transition much easier, as the compassion and love found here was a refreshing polar opposite from the selfish, self involved egomaniacs I had surrounded myself with at rse.
Read as much as you can on here, there is a ton of helpful and truly enlightening information, and don't be too hard on yourself. Ask whatever questions you may have, there is a pm feature on this site if you wish to have a private conversation with someone, there are many helpful and understanding souls here, who know exactly what you are going through.
Again, so glad you are here Newshoes
I give you a big hug and look forward to further conversations with you.
Thank you again Newshoes! I am so happy you're here to share with us and join us in this most effective way that I have ever found of recovering.
So much love for you and all of us here!
And much love and gratitude to Cheryl for her honest, articulate and profound LTE in the NVN. Clearly, it is pointing those who want to know the truth in the right direction.
I can't say enough how it makes me feel to have you all here on this site. And the quick response after I posted for the first time really soothed my nagging doubt about publicly saying anything about voldemort.
I look forward to sharing my story and experiences. And I can hope that, like you, that courage is picked up by even one person.