It is both ironic and serendipitous I found your website on this day! My recovery process has been on-going for years, literally, first saw the "Ram" on video in Forks, WA 1987. I was 37 years then and going through what many call mid-life crisis but for me it was just another step in a lifelong journey as a seeker of knowledge and spiritual truths. At thirteen years of age I had discovered books of science fiction , Childhood's End by Arthur C. Clark , Stranger from a Strange Land by Isaac Asimov and others like Atlas Shrugged by Ayan Rand.
These were definitely forbidden reading by the religion I had been raised in, a cult in itself in my opinion, but thus began my questioning and reasoning process of un-learning and learning. This continues to today. In many ways I still feel effected by this experience with the RAMTHA sessions I attended in Yelm for a period of time from 1987 to 1989.I had tried over the years to gain peace and tranquility from other teachings. At first you are told it is to set you free but then it becomes dogma, ritual and oppression when you do not comply. It was confusing and scary to leave.
I stopped by and tried to get an audience with JZ when I was in a very emotional state, trying to sort out what to do, but her "guard" turned me away at the gate. I knew then I was on my own. I felt lost for a long time afterwards and while my life crumbled around me in divorce and chaos I searched within for answers.
I now realize JZ is an exclusive destructive force not a positive building and all inclusive expanding one for all concerned and self-aggrandizing. I have for years questioned my own disloyalty, inability to grasp the higher concepts etc. etc. etc. of her charismatic teachings. I will be following with a keen interest the court proceedings it appears are initiated, though not sure what it is all about yet, wishing you well!
- David McCarthy
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Yes, thank you taz , welcome to EMF.Your thoughts are well put
For my journey recovering from the RSE mindtrap one of the greatest challenge was just getting one logical thought in front of the other without stumbling into confusion and fear.
It has taken me years to understand the full extent of the cultic abuse methods engineered by JZ Knight and used to control students at R$E. Checking out cultic abuse techniques in human psychology has helped my understanding enormously.
Words such as 'cognitive dissonance' and 'confirmation bias' explains much about the RSE crippling mindset.
I hope our EMF archives helps your understanding to heal all the more from your time in RSE.
I look forward to your sharing with us....
Just happens to be my Birthday also...Happy Independence Day
Confirmation bias - Wikipedia,
Dan Ariely asks, Are we in control of our decisions? - YouTube
Cognitive dissonance - Wikipedia,
A Lesson In Cognitive Dissonance - YouTube
ps. Happy Belated Birthday, David!