If my family were to post here in an angry manner over RSE, I can honestly say to them, "why would you bring this into your life, since *I AM OUT* of that place? What have I done to enrage you so that you post in such anger and joshing violence about RSE, which you haven't experienced? What have I done except to try and help you understand why I went, what it was about, and actually laugh about it at times? So why would you then feel such anger toward that which you know not...and I DO know...yet I have left far behind, and you have now moved "within" such? I would ask, are you not perhaps angry over something else, and perhaps vent here?
I would ask, are you not perhaps angry over something else, and perhaps vent here.
I realize you were talking about YOUR FAMILY. I took it to be directed personally toward me. That was a HUGE mistake. You have every right to feel the way you do. I was reading your Post as though this was "coming out of the mouth of MY sister" & I feel I attacked you unjustly. :(
Your question about being angry over something else...
HERE IS MY CONFESSION
Yes, I am on EMF not only b/c MY Sister gave me the link to see what RSE's Teachings were but in reading the Posts of those who endured such torture but were able to ESCAPE, I found a common ground with you. Perhaps that was My Sister's intention all along.
I have been in an abusive marriage for many yrs. My husband is a Control Freak & an Alcoholic. My Sister knows this so I think she had an ulterior motive (sneaky but wise) to give me the EMF link. Every time I try to leave, I see my husband's good points when he's not drinking & then I have a terrible guilt feeling that I somehow would be "hurting" him if I left him. The abuse is mostly verbal & emotional. Early on it was also physical abuse. ::ashamed to admit this::
There it is, please don't feel sorry for me, don't say I'm sweet. I have Posted Confidential Information relating to my ex-RSE sister & have VIOLATED HER PRIVACY & HER TRUST IN ME.
I have been reading "Take Back Your Life" & can see the parallels in a CULT as it relates to MY MARRIAGE. Maybe this book & the experiences of ex-Ramsters will give me the courage I need to escape this hell. Marriage Counselors wouldn't help us b/c of my husband's drinking problem! That's one reason why I'm still looking at every Post from the Old Message Board & from the experiences of those Posting currently. I'm seeing first-hand how you dealt with leaving an abusive environment & I feel this is GOOD MEDICINE for me, in my own recovery.
Maybe my need to want to help others was two-fold. If I can help someone, maybe I can also help myself. I also needed "FRIENDS" as I don't have any & you ex-Ramsters filled that void. My sister & I don't live close to each other, so I don't get to enjoy her company as much as I'd Love to. She's my ONLY Friend & I Miss Her very much. However, I feel like I now have Friends on EMF.
G2G Thank You for bringing this out of me, I don't think I would have been able to do it were not for your question.<3