Little Wise One,
You are too cool. Love your attitude. Who the heck cares about Creating Your Year ala RSE ? LOL
Ramtha didn't create New Year resolutions, anyway. I'm not crediting "him" for that. Go ahead and make as many as you want ! If you want. You can do whatever you want !! Woohoo !
This year...two FUN things I have resolved to complete are scrapbooking my children's pictures into albums for each of them. Then, have a "family" book, too. I'm also working on two wall quilts that are just gorgeous, and some smaller quilting projects. I don't have a lot of time for these things, but I've MADE time in my schedule to get them done. I have some of my scrapbooking things sitting all over my office floor right now, sorting and organizing for the job ahead. FUN, fun, fun !
This spring, we're going to be planting a huge garden; flowers, fruits, vegetables. I can't wait ! Because we built a new house and moved, over the last two years, we didn't have our usual garden. Hubby and I....well, the kids, too, all miss it. Planning that out in my head, where I want it to go. Don't have to draw it on a card, put it on a fence, and create it by C&E. Just buy the seeds, plants and prepare the ground. LOL !!!
I came across a bunch of photos from a family trip to Yelm (and the area), years ago, when some of my children were younger. I won't elaborate. Long story short, I enjoyed ripping up most of those photos. I kept a very few family shots, taken at Mt. Rainier. The rest were too close to RSE memories so they are no more.
With the RSE stuff, that gets dealt with one day at a time, on an as needed basis. I want to enjoy every second of my life, especially after the amount of time I spent at RSE, that I can't get back. It seems I've become acutely aware of "time" in that regard. For me, it's a matter of putting RSE in a certain perspective. There was some "good" to it, and a lot of "bad". The good doesn't justify the bad, IMO. But, I have the option of putting it "in a box", and putting a label on it, like I would do with my photos. It was what it was, and I can't change what it was, contrary to "Ramtha" saying we can go back in time and alter it. But I CAN affect my future with the choices I make now.
When something painful bubbles up, I let it pass. Remind myself that it is one of any number of painful memories (like losing a parent or other loved one), and it's OKAY to feel the sadness, etc. It's not okay to let it rule one's life.
LIS, you might want to read this short article about grief
http://www.netdoctor.co.uk/health_advic ... /grief.htm
and check online for some other resources. They may be helpful. It seemed to me that I was pushed out the door at RSE, and I had grief. It was intense (as I've posted before) for about 4 months. Then the next two months it lessened more and more and I started to see things very differently. Back then, I didn't think I'd see the day where I truly felt JOY again in my life. But it did come. One day at a time.
